Jane (my partner) was in seriously bad pain throughout Sunday with something wrong with her right ankle. She could not stand on it and this was obviously more than her normal rheumatoid arthritis discomfort. We had been due to travel to Lanzarote on Tuesday 15th - in 36 hours in time. Our suitcases were packed ready, taxi to airport booked, and everything was in place. But on Sunday, Jane’s pain was too bad to face an eight hour travel plan and unawares to me at that time, she was about to announce that she would be unable to travel.

On this Sunday, just hours away from our holiday we were both angry, annoyed and upset. Me, selfishly because the holiday was at jeopardy and cancellation was being seriously considered and it was beyond my control. Jane, because of the pain rendering her in agony and realistically aware that there was no way she could face the journey ahead of her.

We were both very depressed. I was angry that, as a Spiritualist of total belief in there being another source of power available, I was appearing unable to tap into it for Divine healing. I was questioning my inabilities to channel any substantial healing. I had read of interventions from the Divine forces that removed tumors, cured cancers, and all sorts of miraculous medical cures beyond this world. I’d been involved in doing healing of this form myself for many years. I knew of this universal life force and had used it many times for some lesser important assistances for medical means.

So why could I not tap into it now? Where was the help from the Divine? Why is this happening and leaving me feeling effectively useless in the situation?

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[Trevor] I want to start this session tonight, if you don’t mind please? I know that this time is supposed to be for you, but I’m in need of some serious answers or advice. Jane is really suffering with her swollen ankles and can barely walk due to the severity of the pain. As you’ll know, I’ve continued to offer healing every night. But it is bringing no relief. In fact, it doesn’t appear to be doing anything of use. If the Divine can heal, why is that healing power not coming to Jane, even though I’m constantly asking for it? This lack of substance from the spirit world is, at the very least, downright disappointing and is doing nothing to help my belief and faith in the all powerful universal force that we’re led to belief is there for us all to utilise. Can you understand?

Your requests are heard and responded to. Sometimes, as we’ve already mentioned, there is a wide gap between the material and the etheric. Understand this though, not everyone that requests the healing power is going to get it. There are many reasons why this might be and many just cannot be explained. But you must remain strong and do what is necessary from your position first.

Over-ruling physical ailments, such as those Jane is suffering with at this time needs more time. Miracle cures are simply not available all of the time and some things just need to run their natural course physically.

God giveth and God taketh away. So keep meeting us half way, remain strong in your faith, and those mountains will be overcome.

I can tell you that Jane’s pain will reduce towards the end of your first week away. Just do your very best to keep her off her feet as much as you can so the healing process can continue with as few set backs as possible.

I will present you with an appropriate picture of healing tomorrow. When you see it, it’ll remind you that we’re working for you and Jane.

Later that morning, Jane made the decision to cancel the holiday due to her pain being worse and her not being able to stand on both feet without experiencing severe pains. Suitcases were angrily unpacked, taxi cancelled, car hire at Lanzarote cancelled and everything else sorted to end a much needed holiday 24 hours before it even began. We were not to travel.

| In Concluding

Where were the words coming from on that Sunday night/Monday morning? Were they my alter-ego just saying the obvious? Was the answer to the healing question adequate to satisfy me and truth be said only based on my understanding of spiritualist healing? Why did this other voice suggest that healing would start happening over the first week of the holiday when in fact we weren’t even going to go?

Another factor to consider was my state of mind during this writing. I had brought anger into the situation - a charged and disruptive emotion. As I lay there, Jane was groaning in pain in her sleep while I lay there helpless and seeking answers.

As I write this summary, nearly one month later, I can do so with a more objective opinion. I remind myself that my writing at this stage is still only inspired. It is not yet the pure voice of Spirit, merely an inspirational string of words from my own imagination. There is no way anger, upset and disappointment can be taken into a situation such as this in the expectation of getting rational down-to-earth straight answers, under any circumstances, even if I was the next Harry Edwards! Emotions are energies, both negatively and positively charged.

I had taken anger to the Spirit world in the past. I did so around eight years ago when I was lost in my spiritual journey (sorry about the cliché). On that occasion, Saki, my immediate connect, did respond physically and I did get answers. But then, the situation was that I was about to walk away from this chosen way of life. I was about to turn my back on this work and I demanded answers and I got them. I vowed then that I would never consider giving up again.

So although the answers to this current situation regarding Jane’s health don’t satisfy me, spiritually speaking, I’m of the belief that her problems are part of her ‘journey’ and I cannot do more than I’m already doing.

What are your thoughts about this?
Is your belief in healing ever ‘tested’?
Is blind faith enough or can we expect something in return?
Are the words from credited healers always wishy-washy and lacking substance?
Perhaps we’re expecting too much intervention from Spirit occasionally.

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